Struggles, Struggles

 

People use other people. People take other people for granted. It’s a dog eat dog world (is that the expression?). And then there are those good-hearted, selfless people who really do care. If you find one, do not let go because they are one in a million. If you let go, you may never find it again. You can try to replace it with as many things as you can, but they’ll still be a void in you. I learned that, yet I just can’t bring myself to apply it. This isn’t just about love; this is about a true friendship.

I don’t want to lose you, but I don’t want to see you hurt again. I can’t bring myself to believe that I can change, but I don’t want to give up. The question is: Do you think I’m really worth it after everything?

 

Anne’s Farewell Party

Group pic. Everyone helped. Hanna (the girl with the funny face jkjk!) is the one who planned everything and the girl above her is Anne.

True friendship. Period.

NYCBC decided to throw Anne a surprise farewell party since she’s moving to Singapore. I was talking to Hanna about an hour ago and she said that Anne was just getting on the plane. Pray for a safe flight guys. The party was a success and Anne was so surprised. I taped it so I’ll try to post it up later because her scared reaction was hilarious loL.

Everyone came in to help set up the food and tables and decorations. It was really nice to see everyone come in together and united to make the party a success. Hanna planned everything and I have to definitely give her props for what she had done. With college just around the bend, friendships will be tested and many may become broken. But Hanna and Anne, it’s true friendship. No doubt when I say that. From the way I saw Hanna break down, I knew it was for real. Afterwards, I wish I had the right words to say to comfort Hanna. I don’t know if it worked, but it doesn’t matter. She’s a strong girl; she’ll be better in time. They’ll keep in touch and remember each other forever. I know it. You can’t fake something so real. And it’s only a matter of time before Anne comes back. When she does, I hope I’m there to see just how happy Hanna and Anne become when they reunite loL. It’ll be a true miracle. But until then, many prayers for Anne and her family in Singapore.

I wish I find my own “Hanna” one day loL.

 

Sunday Service [Part 1]

I find this one of the most beautiful things about church. The above picture isn’t the best picture I can take of it, but it’s when we get the chance to sing to God. And I love singing. The difference here is that we are a unified whole and no matter how good or bad you sing, God still finds it beautiful and loves you. You have to be there to know what I’m trying to describe.

So this Sunday is my last Sunday Service at NYCBC before I head off to Binghamton. I know I’ll be back, but it’s just kind of sad to be leaving just when I’m about to feel like a part of it all. I sat by myself for a while on the english congregation side just to get a last feel of everything. It sort of became another home for me even though I’ve only been there for 2-3 months. The people I met there were awesome, dedicated, friendly people and it sucks now that Binghamton will cause me to see them and hang out with them less.

I just wanted to start a new category for my WordPress to share what I learn during Sunday Service. It’s also a good way to help myself keep track of everything I learn. PB’s message today hit me because it not only talks about Christianity, but also relates to everyday life. We have to be able to leave our comfort zones to reach out to others. Try things you may have never done before or don’t like to do because we can’t focus on our own selfish desires of pure enjoyment and rather, we should enjoy the bonding experience of just being with someone. Yeah, harder said than done…I know. It just hits me hard because I’ve recently lost friends or lost contact with them since school ended. Some of them may have invited me to do something, but I didn’t go because I wasn’t interested. I should’ve went just to spend some time with that friend because college is coming right around the corner. I am guilty of that selfish desire for pure enjoyment.

For this summer, I’ve spent most of my time with the NYCBC people. I’ve gotten closer to them while becoming more distant to a lot of my other friends. It’s a hard balance, but it’s time to try harder.

 

I Conquered the Cyclone!

Yup, I went on it today with the NYCBC Footsteps crew. It was a sick, awesome ride yo! And I was sitting next to Emily Hui too. She was going crazy about it loL. And since I mentioned her, it’s past 4AM and I’m talking to her again loL. I found this hilarious:

Em: i would like to find a nice guy
Em: normal guy
Em: in a live house
Em: that’s not gonna happen, so i’m just gonna stalk random stars
Em: LOL

Good night. I am exhausted.

EDIT: It’s 5AM and I’m still talking to her loL. I think I said good night around 4:15.

EDIT AGAIN: It’s 5:33AM. I’m still talking! WTHECKKK!

 

Wow Emily, Stop Making Me Stay Up So Late

Emily Hui (5:04:51 AM): morning to you too.

 ^ Yup, another night talking to Emily past 5AM. This nocturnal thing is seriously going to mess me up one day. My eyes are dying on me. Good morning. I’m going to bed!

 

Birthday Shoutouts [Part 1]

Happy 18th Birthday Jamie Hom!!! I met this girl while working at Red Apple Child Development Center last summer and it’s only been a year of getting to know her and chilling with her, but we’re already off to college. This girl took my spot that I gave up for Boston University loL. JK Jamie. She’s awesome and I wish her a great 18th year.

Also, another birthday shoutout to Anne Yeung, a buddy of ours at NYCBC. We only talked like 3 times, but I still wish her all the best and a great and safe year in China.

 

Joker Owns Batman

 

Alright, so I watched Batman on Saturday with a bunch of the Footsteps people. If I’m counting correctly, there were 20 of us. The movie was AWESOME! However, I can’t call it epic like a lot of people did because I liked Iron Man more. But I can say Joker was E.P.I.C. He was the bomb man. Heath Ledger pulled him off amazingly. Oscar for Best Villain anyone? He’d have my vote. I liked the boat scene the most, but I won’t say anything to spoil the movie for those who haven’t watched it yet. Afterwards, we went to TGI Friday’s to eat and the food was O.D. expensive. 18 bucks for my salad!

You wanna see a magic trick? =]

p.s. Hanna, the batpod and tumbler are ugly. My ride still owns

 

What’s up with Alex Fong and Stephy Tang movies?

Ok, so I just finished this movie and it’s like 5AM. Yup, I told you I was nocturnal. And Emily went to bed, so I decided to watch it. I HATE ALEX FONG AND STEPHY TANG MOVIES!!! Yo, why do you guys always have to make a bad twist to the ending when the supposed ending right before it is happy? Why do you have to ruin the moment for? WHOEVER THOUGHT OF IT SHOULD GO SUCK A LOLLIPOP! SERIOUSLY! And how come one of them always has to be a bad person? And how come Stephy is so innocent when she’s the good one? Alright, I’m done. If you ever watched it, you might wonder the same things. If you didn’t, watch it and you’ll sense my frustrations yo! Alright, good night!

 

Can you say nocturnal?

Oh man, it’s 6AM and I’m still up talking to Emily. I think she’ll be my nocturnal buddy from now on. I have the worst sleeping habits. I stayed up until 5 yesterday watching Bourne Identity and Bourne Supremacy. Good movies btw.

That’s all I wanted to say. Look at the posts below and leave a comment if you want. Thanks. Good night!

Officially signed off at 6:35AM –>
Emily (6:30:05 AM): GOOD MORNING
Emily (6:30:08 AM): SWEET DREAMS
^ When can u say that at the same time and still make sense? loL

 

A Part of Me [Part 2]

spinnin’: “if i never see your face again” – maroon 5 ft. rihanna

Alright, so that entry a while back wasn’t so successful, but since I said I’ll answer anything, here goes:

Joel/Quentin: What are your feelings on rubberband balls?
–> W.T.EFF guys. That is some mad random question. Oh wait, scratch that. I just googled rubberband balls and took a look at the images. It’s kind of cool if you can make it really colorful. Can I ask why you guys even asked me that?

Amey: Do you even still remember who I am?
–> Of course loL. We have to hang out one day. I haven’t seen you in forever. You still have any more of those song suggestions for me? =]

Chris: Where in Florida you gonna be?
–> I will be in Orlando, where DisneyWorld and Universal Studios and all that good stuff are.

Oh, and you guys can continue to ask me questions, any random thing that floats your boat. Ask away. Hopefully, they’ll be more and umm “better” questions this time loL. Alright, it’s 12AM; time to go watch a movie. Peace!